Back in the U.S.S.R.

The political landscape in this country is a reproduction of democracy. It is not real, it is imagined. We have all noted in previous elections that it came down to a choice between the “lesser of two evils”.  We tolerate this? Why should we be forced to choose any evil?

Because we too are evil, or blind, or apathetic.

I personally have not voted in a Presidential election. The first time I was even inspired to vote was in the Republican primaries, and that was for Ron Paul. I watched the blogosphere and Internet press explode with the “Ron Paul Revolution”. Some co-workers and friends were caught up in the hype. I admit that sometimes I found myself getting really excited. (I also confess that I later secretly mocked those who acted similarly towards Obama) The reason why I see red flags when a large group becomes so blindly devoted is because I know this leaves us vulnerable to subtle and even direct manipulation.

The secret board of shadowy figures that rule this planet have been pulling the strings of the public mind for so long that they no longer hide it from us. The agendas of the global elite are coming to fruition (i.e., the rise of the global bank and economy, the socializing of the United States).  How do I know they are not hiding it from us? Because we know about it, and not just that, some of us think it is a good idea! I have friends I love that are devout socialists. Our bloated federal government has been promising to take care of us for so long that we forgot that this country was founded by people who took care of themselves. These patriots wanted to be freed from a tyrannical government, and wanted to live life as they saw fit.

What do we want in life? How do we want to live? Most of us are so distracted by the whirlwind of life that surrounds us that we all too often forget how to be happy. We are distracted by dead end jobs. we are distracted by merchandise, and by reality TV, and by cheese stuffed crust pizza. An early roman poet who probably felt as I do now, said “Panem et Circensus”, which translates to “bread and circuses”. Caesar had learned the equation to keep his empire at war and keep the masses subdued. Keep them entertained, and keep them waiting for handouts.

Does this sound familiar at all?

Situations

Situation Number One:
It’s the one that’s just begun,
But evidently it’s too late.

Situation Number Two:
It’s the only chance for you.
It’s controlled by denizens of hate.

Situation Number Three:
It’s the one that no one sees.
It’s all too often dismissed as fate.

Situation Number Four:
The one that left you wanting more,
It tantalized you with its bait.

-Jack Johnson

I find myself enjoying a simple song this morning. I have not had the luxury of enjoying too much of anything in the last few months, so I find it peculiar that I am still able to be in a fairly agreeable mood just about every morning.

I have some possible job opportunities coming up. If I do not get something soon, I will probably be heading back to Utah. I will try to prevent yet another move across state lines if possible, but these things are not always up to me. It is up to Him whom also gives me the joy to get through every day.

BTW… 16 months in…

201.8 pounds

36” Waist

Booyah!

Cocoon

Based on your smile
I’m betting all of this might be over soon
But you’re bound to win
Because if I’m betting against you, I think I’d rather lose

But this is all that I have so please
Take what’s left of this heart and use
Please use only what you really need
You know I only have so little so please
Mend your broken heart and leave

I never stood a chance. It was doomed from the very beginning. I shouldn’t have allowed myself to fall. I could have avoided this, and I wouldn’t be feeling what I am feeling now. Those who know me, however, knew it was inevitable. Yes, this has broken me.

I know it’s not your style
And I can tell by the way that you move it’s real real soon
But I’m on your side
And I don’t want to be your regret
I’d rather be your cocoon

If I wanted to be selfish then I would have no problems being someone’s regret. When I truly love someone, though, it is best to ensure their happiness regardless of how it leaves me feeling. Sometimes, in order to protect the person I love it means I cannot say those words, no matter how much it stings not to.

But this is all that you have so please
Let me take what’s left of your heart and I will use
I swear I’ll use only what I need
I know you only have so little so please
Let me mend my broken heart and…

I do need some mending right now. How can I mend, dear reader, when everyone else is broken around me. I promise you it wouldn’t take much to get me on the road to recovery- just someone to love me. But not JUST someone. I do want her.

You said this was all you had, and it’s all I need
But blah, blah, blah because it fell apart and
I guess it’s all you knew and all I had
But now we have only confused hearts and
I guess all we have is really all we need

So please
Let’s take these broken hearts and use
Let’s use only what we really need
You know we only have so little so please
Take these broken hearts and leave

I’m thinking that maybe it will take me walking away in order to recover from this. Leaving is something I do really well, dear reader.